Rocktober is nearly over...

I can't believe it! Nearly the end of October! When did that happen?

So much has happened in the last few weeks, I don't even know where to begin...

Food Stuff:
I've been wanting to try something new but right now it's not possible - money is tight and the initial outlay is more than we can afford right now. The program is a nutritional cleanse and is bought 30 days at a time so quite a pricey start. I'm totally bummed because I really want to give it a go, but understand why it's not possible.

Work Stuff:
I still don't have a job. This makes me sad. Rejection emails flood my inbox, and the only phone calls I get are people telling me I'm not successful but 'can we interest you in this Certificate that is free to you but gets us a Government grant for training you'. I have no idea why I need a piece of paper telling me I can do all the things I've been doing for years in the workplace, but apparently that piece of paper is more highly regarded than 10 years of experience when it comes to applying for work. I'm headed down to Centrelink in the morning to see about benefits. This also makes me sad.

Fitness Stuff:
My running program is the best thing going on right now. I'm enjoying my runs and getting better at pacing myself so that I can last the distance in the intervals. I'm not setting any records, but I'm doing it and I don't particularly care if people see me huffing around the streets. I've given up caring what I look like to others and begun focusing on getting myself sorted out instead. It's working. I also have done a bootcamp-style workout that left my thighs and bum screaming for 4 days... I don't think I'll go back to that one for a while as I quite enjoy going to the toilet pain-free.

Weight Stuff:
It went up, now it's coming down. This made me sad but is making me happy again.

Love Stuff:
I am smitten. I am overwhelmed by the support my husband shows me on a daily basis - he's just the best.

Home Stuff:
We moved. We're now closer to my family and friends and I just love it. It's only been a week and I've already reconnected with heaps of people and feel a little less isolated. We just have sooooo much stuff that needs to be unpacked and sorted through and garage-saled. Urgh.

Cali Stuff:
The big competition for the year is over. This makes me sad. I've retired from competing (again) after this competition, to make babies... which makes me happy. But 26 years of doing the thing I love and I'm not ready to give it up completely, so I'm continuing coaching both teams and solos next year. The girls I am coaching this year are all due for skills exams in a few weeks so I'm caught up teaching them the new syllabus and getting them perfect at it.

Baby Stuff:
We're gonna make some. Not sure when, but the conversations are getting more and more serious. This makes me happy.

Happy things and sad things. A few of each.